When I first became a BT, Teshuva was so easy. Over the course of 2 years, I was keeping Shabbos, Kosher, Davening regularly and performing all the seasonal mitzvos.
After 8 years it has become a lot harder to do Teshuva, even at this time of year. When I look over the last year, the changes are much smaller and were much more difficult to make.
Have other people experienced this change in Teshuva?
Are there a different set of tactics and goals at this later stage?
Is there anything special about the Teshuva of a BT at this point or am I now fighting the same battles that a FFB faces?
“Former Teshuva Master”